Friends, fans, and everybody else, starting from today, I will no longer update this friendster blog. But that doesn’t mean I will stop blogging. I will continue to blog at dirboy.multiply.com. You can visit me over there.
I guess this is good-bye.
Assalamualaikum
Uda lama gak ngisi blog
baru ganti STNK karena hilang.(Akhirnya, setelah 4 hari bolak-balik ke samsat…)
Besok mo UAS…
I must not fail this time.
Temen2, doain saya ya
Farewell
Wassalamualaikum
Assalamualaikum.
It’s 6 days before Ramadhan, dan gw merasa masih belum siap.
There’s a lot of things that needs to be prepared. Banyak hal terkait kebiasaan jelek, dan kaffarat yang belum dibayar (this is serious)
Well I hope I can make this last 6 days beneficial to me.
itu aja ah.
Wassalamualaikum
ps: akhir2 ini kok banyak ya yg punya blog? Bagus2 lagi. Maybe I should make one too.
21 years have passed since I was born. Gak terasa ya? Kayaknya baru kemarin gw ngerjain PR pagi hari sebelum bel sekolah berbunyi. Kayaknya baru kemarin gw mulai ikut mentoring bareng temen2 sekelas. Kayaknya baru kemarin gw naik kereta-keretaan di salah satu toko swalayan sambil disuapin (sbelum SD -red). Ya, waktu memang berjalan cepat, tanpa terasa.
I remember 1 point in my life, beberapa hari setelah melewati ujian SPMB, gw berpikir, apa yang akan terjadi ya setelah ini? What lies beyond today, after 12 years of school days? At that point of my life, gw bener-bener gak bs bayangin hidup gw pasca sekolah. Ya iyalah, coba aja bayangin, kalo sebelumnya dari SD naik ke SMP, kan masih kebayang kan tiap hari bakal ngapain aja (dateng pagi ke sekolah, ngerjain PR, ikut kuliah, oops maxud gw belajar 2-3 mata pelajaran, istirahat, belajar lagi, terus pulang. Repeat that day after day. The same goes to transition from SMP to SMA. Tapi itu semua berubah untuk SMA ke kuliah.
And now, 3 years have passed since that point of time. Dan bener, pola hidup gw banyak berubah. Sekarang gw pulang ke rumah nyaris sekali tiap minggu, itupun di akhir pekan! (pengecualian utk 2 bulan ke depan berhubung komputer di kos lg rusak dan memang sekarang lagi libur semester). Adik gw mulai kuliah juga, parahnya, kalo dia pulang 2 bulan bisa sekali (maklum, kuliahnya di Bandung.
dan… oops uda adzan maghrib. Today I just made commitment. Gk ada lagi mikir2 or bingung2 ngedahuluin kerjaan ato melakukan apa yang seharusnya di lakukan. So, sholat dulu aaah. ..
…..wait, just a moment… this feeling (ngobrol juga sama kiri kanan, mastiin apa yang dirasakan) guys, GILA, jakarta baru GEMPA LAGI!! which means…
..to be continued
Assalamualaikum
It’s been a while since my last post. Many things have happened since. One of those things is the rebirth of my old company TRIVIA. Ever since it’s first project 2 years ago, the ‘Monochrome Memoire’, TRIVIA has never produced another major project. Not until 2 months ago that is. It was the ‘Memories of BEM UI 2004-2005′ that marks the birth of my old business. I was with a new set of team when this 2nd Project initiates. In one of our last meetings, in the aftermath days of the release of the video, one of my team suddenly said ‘Why don’t we continue this project into a company?’. A sudden inspiraton then struck my mind. A dream that was suspended for more than a year, an editing PC that was brought by using my dad’s money with a promise to make a money with that PC, I know that day, the moment has come. So along with that new team, plus 3 more people that I considered will be usefull, a total of 13 people from various kinds of faculty within UI, declared the new foundation of the ‘Trivia Production’! A month have passed, many obstacles and problems have begun to occur. Time by time, we began to learn the dark side o
f business..
Finally, I just want to ask for all of you, my friends, forgiveness. For all the mistakes that I have done, for all the actions that I unpurposedly did that offended you, and for all my uncomfortable way of speaking, attitude, and weaknesess (hey, nobody’s perfect). And I wished all my muslim friends, to have a HAPPY RAMADHAN MONTH!!!! Let us forgive each other before Ramadhan (2 more days!)
Wassalamualaikum
Wow, it has already been around 2 months since I decided to join the Student’s Senate (SM-Fasilkom UI)! Back then, I remembered the day when I decided to accept Nasri’s (The President of the Senate) offer to me. The offer to become the Head of the most dangerous Departement (well, that’s what I thought) in the Senate. The P&K Department. The P&K itself stands for ‘Profesi dan Keilmuan’ (or Profession and Knowledge.. did I translate it right?). Basicly it’s a Department that deals with small or big events that has to do with Information Technology (IT) such as Computer Workshops, Expos, or Seminars. Big Events from my Faculty came from this Department. OK, back to my decision. Supposedly, I should’ve not taken Nasri’s offer if I wanted to optimize my Grades to its fullest. (For those who don’t know, my Grades, my GPA, is currently at the worst point ever. It’s way below standard. and it’s been like this for the past 1 and a half years). And my previous organization experience wasn’t really good at all (disappointed many people for instance). But then again, Life is a choice. We decide our future by making that choice. If I wanted to play safe, I would have rejected the offer. But opportunities like this don’t come very often. So, after many many considerations, I decided to accept this risky offer. An offer which lead me to a position I would never had imagined before. A position that needs very high responsibility and commitment. I decided to take all those, on that one day in July. It was an all new experience to me. A few weeks later, I found myself with 16 new companions inside the Department. 16 new brothers (and sisters) that will help me, side-by-side, for the one whole year. 16 new people, that I have considered, as a family. My second family. Looking at them, deep in my heart, I vowed to myself to never let them down. To give them comfort and warmness a family can have. Welcome abroad brothers. Let us do our best! For the sake of this Department. For the sake of this Organization. And for the sake of this Faculty..
Insha Allah…
What a day! Felt really tired, after becoming the ‘field coordinator’ (Did I translate it right?) for today’s new student "briefing" at my faculty. Glad things went just fine. All those events ended just about 3 hours ago, which was already dark by the way. And you know what, suddenly, it was rainning. And now, I’m stuck inside the SM-Fasilkom UI’s room (for those who don’t know, SM stands for ‘Senat Mahasiswa’) waiting, until the hard rain ends.
Ok, what to talk? How about, let’s talk about life.What’s so interesting about life?You know, I often opened my sms conversation with the line "how’s life?" to my fellow friends. Till know, I always thought that those 2 words have deep meanings inside. It’s like a universal question. A Question that can be answered by many kinds of different answer. But really, what is Life really? Any opinion?
Assalamualaikum
Ok, this feeling had just struck me in. The feeling of insecure. Looking back, I remembered of all the stupid, selfish, and foolish things I have done. The mistakes that kept repeating itself. The guilt that just can’t stop haunting. I have made, a stupid action.. in the beginning. And then, I made ANOTHER stupid action. This time, regret feels a bit more heavy. And so I introspect myself. But you know what? It happened again.. that stupid action that i’ve should’ve regreted happened again. I ask myself, why.. So I re-introspect, and try to punish myself (not physically) this time. But then again, those actions become a routinity. It’s like a circle of evil. And this sickens me. A person should’ve not repeat the same mistake twice! But why? After having the knowledge of good and wrong, I kept making the same stupid action?
OK, some of you may be wondering now, what is this ’stupid action’? It’s actually something I shouldn’t do. It could be anything. Now, the problem is, I have done many ’shouldn’t-do’ things ranging from simple stupid things like putting your finger to your finger inside your ear and then pointing it in front of your nose to s***l it and talking very unclearly (or too fast?) that made yourself look very-very stupid (a freak even) continouesly every day, to sinfull stuffs I don’t even dare to speak the name of the action.
All of this, somehow, because of the continuity of this stupid action. I became less and less guilty. No more regrets, no more burden of sin. It all became a part of everyday life.. until.. a very hard-knocking bad event struct your life. Events like, failing on your exam.. continouesly, motorcycle accident, making major mistake to your friends, your 3 month planned big campus event became a major failure with a total loss of 80 Million Rupiah, and all because of you. When that happens.. A guilt that felt very-very strong, the feeling of collecting small and big sins into one humongous sin. A feelling that lead into.. a very insecure moment. The fact that you can die at anytime began to haunt you. Of all those hard feelings, it was the burden of the big sin that haunts you the most. If I hadn’t crossed the critical moment that happened around July 2004, Death may be one of my option.
So how do I pass this very insecure moment? The answer: Redemption. The only way I managed to survive those insecure moments is by redeem the mistake I made. Taubah, the realization of knowing the fact that you’re just another human being, vulnarable to mistakes and stupidity. No matter how smart you are, no matter how old you are, you will always make mistake. Even Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) make mistake.
Yes, that is why Islam is beautiful. No matter how big your sins are, no matter how far you’ve fallen into the ‘dark-side’, redemption is always a choice. Allah will always forgive you. But this doesn’t mean you can always do sinfull things knowing you can redeem anytime. Because ‘anytime’ really depends on when you will die.
OK, I just discussed about how insecure came to me and how I managed to survive. I realize that many of the examples that I have spoken occurred during my critical moments other than the critical moment that I used the term to describe: the point that I realized the real truth.(confused?). Let’s use the term ‘very-hi-level-of-insecure-moment’ to describe this critical moment. What happened to me now, today, as what I have reffered in the beginning of this writting is a ‘low-level-of-insecure-moment’. Get it? OK, before things become more confusing, Dega, signing out!
until we meet again, insha Allah!
Wassalamualaikum
Assalamualaikum!!
Hello, this is the premiere of my first blog! After drooling over someone’s cool blog and 3 days of consideration, I finally make this decision! Ok, first things first, many of you must be wondering why would a person like me decided to blog. The main reason is: I like to think wild things, theories beyond normal imagination, philosophical things, both realistic and unreal. They often roam inside my head, very very often. And it’s just so darn uncool if I don’t publish those.. things. But thank god I’m not a free-thinker. Well, not until last year, when I’m still uncertain about my faith. Yes, that dark june.. It was the darkest point of my life.. yet. Just glad I passed that critical point of my life.
Also, there’s my everyday life. Full of exciting, cool, dark, stories! OK, maybe I was a little too over-the-border at telling things. To tell you the truth, I’m not really used into writting. So, sorry if many of these writings sometimes don’t make any sense, or maybe, wrong grammars,vocabs,etc.
I think this is long enough to be an introductory post. Too long perhaps. Neverthless, I welcome all of you to read the tale of my life! Enjoy!
Wassalamualaikum
